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| neighbor's blossom tree |
Today I am writing about a sermon Sunday. My Pastor is in a series called Relationship: a Mess Worth Making. When I sat there and listen, I thought man this will be good here because this is so a Random Thought topic.
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| my garden angel's hanging in my room |
I could feel God saying for me to share. In the series he hit the topics of marriage/family, singleness (which I missed on the count of I was at Retail), divorce, finding or becoming (a relationship).
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| Thanksgiving Family & Friends 2016 |
The latter topic is the one that God has me writing about; another word for finding is journey, which that is what this blog is about my journey on becoming a better me, the one I dream about and how I change my home to reflect that me.
The big Question that was said that morning was " what are you going to do once you found it?" That is a good question cause(and) you need to know that I'm ok in my singleness; I'm not searching, not expecting, & mostly not asking God to get him to me.
You see I've had relationship that failed because I don't know how to work at it, I've picked wrong and not listen to God that he's not the one for me ( something that has been repeated - the picking part). I have realized my Picker is broken and I have thrown it out in the trash. What I have done is strengthen my relationship with God, the more I lean on Him the more I see Him doing the things I have expected from man. That is the thing God wants most from us as His children - to lean on Him, to have counsel with Him, to love Him
In this I also know that I am not just working on knowing that I am ok for not wanting a husband but that I have many other relationships that need working. You see I've come to see me as an introvert or better way to describe me is that I am my own best company. Which means I can hang in my own space or have lunch out by myself. The only draw back is that days can turn to a week or 2 before I realize that I haven't talked to my children. And my biggest thing is my BFF since 1st grade is like 20 minutes from me & we haven't gotten together. I think of them always - they are in my thoughts and prayers every day. My whole family is - sisters and brothers & in-laws, nieces and nephews, cousins, aunts and uncles - step ones too, Mindy Mom's side & the ones I grew up with & call family.
My introvert was something I remembered as a child, I was ok with hanging out in my room coloring or playing with dolls; but then as I got high school age the peer pressure was on - boyfriend/girlfriend thing. I meet someone- had kids, had problems, raised kids by myself and then once they became independent; I began the journey back to my own company. Of course I thought I still needed a someone (remember the broken Picker)..... Now that I have come to realize The Broken Picker I have left the picking to God. And discovering who God says I am - Proverbs 31.
I will leave you with the closing Question from my Pastor:
What's going on in your relationships? What are you focusing on?
until next thought,
Mia
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